For making a morning person that often witnesses the warm colors of the sunrise.
For passing on your knowledge of making things by hand and the love that went into it.
For being patient and brutally honest proving everyone is entitled to their opinion and if someone doesn’t like it they don’t have to listen.
For cooking at home and demonstrating there will never be a restaurant that tastes as good as they think does, do something useful with that money.
For being a bargain hunter and taking creativity to the limits selling trash for profit.
For making sure grandma had a little extra for all those years, a reminder the importance of taking care of those that took care of us.
For teaching moral, ethical behavior by living it.
For being excited about things even if you didn’t understand them just to show how much you cared.
For being able to do anything showing that anyone can if they try.
For fighting harder that anyone should have had to just to shove a little more life into the time that was left.
For the love that you shared making living without you even harder when I see the best parts of you in my daughter.
For being a true friend that lives on in the memories I share.
Today I saw a picture that one of my great cousins had posted. The picture not only had her mother but also had my grandma. Several of my family members commented and said they could see their grandma in the picture.
Today would have been grandma’s 92nd birthday, the picture was not posted today, I just happened to see it today. I used to think my mom and my grandma were somehow looking over me or out for me. Some strange coincidences that I am not sure I believe or not, remind me just at the right time that they are there.
A few years ago on Valentine’s Day I was doing taxes and looking for an old file in my filing cabinet when I came across a poem that my mom had printed and sent to me through snail mail on Valentine’s Day several years before. How likely is it that I happened to find the valentines letter on Valentine’s Day. On my birthday a few years later I was looking for something in email and I came across the oldest email in my mailbox from my mother in 2006 and all it said was “Hi from Mom”, it made my day to read the simple massage.
So today seeing my grandma’s picture on her birthday was a gift and I made sure to take the opportunity to remember the incredible person my grandma was.
When I looked at the picture I didn’t see my grandma I saw “me”, felt her hug and heard her soft voice saying “Let’s have ice cream and play gin, it will all get better”
I have always just considered myself plain girl, and when I was younger, fat plain girl. I don’t have any famous people in my history. My husband on the other had has some pretty big shoes to fill. Both of us are complex people but for different reason that are worlds apart.
I am a diverse easy going, unnoticed, barely identified as a speck of matter in the universe that came from nowhere special, nothing important and surely no one worth mentioning in history. My grandma and dad’s mom lost her husband in her 30’s and worked hard at a sewing factory raising their three kids plus after losing her daughter in a car accident, she also raised her 2 of her grand babies that were only 1 and 2 years old at the time. She worked hard for little money but was always happy making it with what she had. She got to spend 15 years retired and living at the lake on only $350 per month in Social Security. My mom’s dad was a brake mechanic who actually made a decent living pulling in around $600 per week in the 60’s. He retired in 1980 when they decided they were going to pay him by the hour instead of by the job. His 18 retired years were spent in the middle of the couch beer in one hand a cigarette in the other, he was happy with that. My mom’s mom until she was 85 years old never had a job when I hired her to proofread documents for a project I had that needed so help and she had a sharp mind that landed her $25 per hour for a 3 month project. Her Social Security was also only around $300 per month added to grandpa’s $900 they were lucky my grandma was frugal. My mom got a job at 18 with AT&T and retired with 31 years of service when she was 50. Her life having been cut short when she was added to the gift registry body donations hopefully helping cancer research having had cancer twice with 2 different kinds and the only complaint was that she would never collect her hard earned Social Security. My dad also spent most of his life doing the same thing having 28 years of service when he retired in 1999 and since has been self described and bored and broke. Al in all nothing special for any of them just taking up space on this tiny planet and making me a big part of who I am, very thankful for having been a part of their lives.
Now on to the other hand in this marriage. My husband has a list of people that made their mark for different reasons leaving him with big shoes to fill. The man he called pop, other than his paternal grandfather what also after returning from WWII the principal of one of the local schools that was later named for him in honor of the service to the students which he knew the name of every one enrolled. Then there is his Popsy, his mom’s dad built managed and owned an excavating company that in the early 80’s was the largest in Texas, There is a street named after him as a result of him having poured the first concrete road in the city of Cedar Hill, TX. And this not being enough, he did it with a 3rd grade education and in a short time frame having passed away in 1981 of an aneurism. Now on to his mother who had 2 children while still in high school and managed to still finish, lead a simple life constantly perusing her passion for crochet which we found was far greater than anything we could have imagined while cleaning out her house following her passing away of cancer at the age of 56. Before her early end she managed to leave her mark as a contributor to a project that was a theory of a sphere that existed in nature and was visually represented in a display called the crochet coral reef that was on display at the Smithsonian and later traveled the worked. And while not immediate family his great great uncle was an infamous gun slinger and outlaw from the late 1800’s and if you are interested take a look at his Wikipedia. He not only has big shoes to fill he has a lot of them.
So while my husband has a family history full of people recognized for something that they worked hard at and was passionate about its success. I have a family history of those who just managed to make it. Who roots are deeper we will never be able to judge as we are all small variations of that original tree and part of the complexities of its massive root system.
Is the color of my paper after writing and erasing this so many times the page is no longer white. It is many shades of grey.
Maybe tomorrow will be different, I can’t wait to see what comes out of the end of my pencil tomorrow, hopefully it is much more colorful than my empty over erased smeared up otherwise blank sheet of paper.
You will find the inspiration for this blank sheet with just one click here
I am not sure why but every day I spend a few moments scattered throughout the day jumping around Bitcoin sites. Let me tell you that if you don’t know what they are, you need to find out, and if you don’t have any you need to get some. Whether it is Bitcoin or any other crypto currency, I recommend, ripple (xrp), but that is my opinion. I have been learning about it since 2011 but it started in 2009 and they at that time gave it away, they just threw it out everywhere to build hype and a reputation for itself, but trying to convince most people that there was value in something that wasn’t real. Many that had large amounts early on just lost them, forgot about them, or in some cases just threw them away, such as the person who threw away a house. Apparently they had thrown out an old computer that had enough Bitcoin on it that the lucky person who recovered it cashed in $200,000 and bought a new house.
The value of Bitcoin which was once $0 is currently creeping up on $1300 each, not quite it’s $1800 high from a few years ago but still quite an impressive gain. Especially when you can still get them, although very limited amounts for free.
So here I am giving you a start. By signing up on freebiebitcoin you will receive $10 worth of Bitcoin. All you have to lose is the 5 minutes it will take to spread the word to others.
If you would like a little more because you become a junkie like me try freebitco.in it doesn’t pay much but when free can eventually turn into a house, why not waste your time you are sitting around doing nothing building a house (maybe)
**Note – I have not been paid for this I just did it so we are learning together. I am researching and testing.
AS a follow up to Happy Earth Day Happy Birthday to my mom, these are pictures from Glacier Bay Alaska from a cruise that mom and I took when she was trying to fit as much as she could into the rest of her life. This was one of the most amazing places I had ever seen mostly due to the age of the Ice. We even learned why the ice looks blue, and I would have never guessed. The ice filters out the other colors in the spectrum leaving only blue. You were always smiling but I could see the pain in your eyes.