Those who live with deep …

Those who live with deep passion also suffer deep pain.

For Karen


Mother-in-law Mastermind

My mother in law is a really neat lady. She is incredibly diverse in thinking and I am envious of her accomplishments.

You see her passion is crochet; she spends hours and hours making all kinds of things that she pulls out of her head. The thing that I envy most is her contribution to the Smithsonian where she with the help of others crocheted a model of a scientific theory called the Hyperbolic Crochet Coral Reef. It is no longer on display but it is a traveling exhibit. In my wildest dreams I never thought that I could do anything like that. She is very modest about it but continues to think of unique ways to show off her skill in her craft.

Ever since I have been trying to figure out what contribution I could make that would be worthy.

She promised to be my guardian angel – and she is

MomIn the letter that my mom wrote that I found in her stuff she told me that she was going to be my guardian angel. I have had a really hard time with her death. We just got the opportunity to become friends and do things together when she got cancer. She became my best friend, she always had time to talk and I called her every day.

On Mother’s Day in 2009 the first year she was gone I was looking through my old email, I am not sure for what, but I hit the button for oldest and there was an email that said “Hi from Mom” I think I cried for hours and I was already worked up missing her. She sent me a message on Mother’s Day to let me know she was there with me.

I am not much of a believer in that kind of thing but then this past year on Valentine’s Day I was digging through my file cabinet for some tax paperwork and found an email that she sent me 10 years ago that I had printed. Again I think it was her telling me she was there. What are the odds that I would find a Valentine’s email on Valentine’s Day?

It really helps to know she is here with me

Live out of the laundry basket.

When my mom was told she had less than 3 years to live if she was lucky she stopped sorting her socks. She also stopped doing a lot of other things like making her bed, going to bed at a decent hour, eating right, and she didn’t do much of any cleaning.

I told her that her socks didn’t match one day and she told me that she didn’t have time to sort socks, there was too much other stuff that she never got to do and sorting socks wasn’t one of them.

In the 3 and a half years that she lived she went on 5 cruises, she would go to thrift stores and get what she called cruise clothes and then she would donate them. She went to Greece, Istanbul, Italy, Alaska, Egypt just to name a few. She also went on more ski trips than I can remember, took up crafts and volunteered when she could.

She shoved all she could into that three and a half years and it taught me that I need to start now.

Grandma said


Grandma says

Today my grandma told me I was accident prone.

I told her that people that don’t have accidents don’t do anything worthwhile (by the way I had to look this up to see if it was worth wild or worth while come to find out it is worthwhile all one word meaning it is worth your time.)